Rfl Cstllo. Add some vowels to get my name right. I live somewhere in Manila but I study somewhere in the Cordillera. I used to blog everyday, but there's just a lot of other things that keeps me busy these days.
So I changed my blog's layout. Why? 'Cause the other one doesn't work properly on I.E. So I decided to look for another layout in Blogskins, which is obviously the only place I go to looking for...layouts. So enough with the word layout. Since I love cats (or do I?), I picked this layout. How to use it? Simple. Click on each words on: "Curiosity kills the cat". They will direct you to any page. Wait, I just edited the "home page", so there you go. :D
Anyway, regarding the title. I'm thinking of creating a blog that is a "secret blog" where I am the only one who can read it. It's like an online diary, the kind notebook you write your secrets or thoughts...except that I haven't owned a real one or kept a real one. Anyway, I'm just thinking about it and since it's just an idea, maybe it may never happen. Or maybe not. I don't know.
So, I have less than a week before I'll be going to Baguio :l Right now, I still don't know on what I feel about it. It's either a happy feeling since it's Baguio and I'll be there for like four years or a sad feeling since I'll miss Manila a lot where I've been living for the whole of my life. But, either way, it's just hard to tell which really is which.
Another Lesson Learned?
Thursday, May 20, 2010 @ 8:48 PM
My bestfriend and I planned to see each other today. Sure enough, it happened. But before that, something happened that made me bother the whole day.
So, we told each other to see at McDo. I was expecting her to see her by the door because I've been used to that when I always wait for my Mom there. But, my guess was NOT correct and I have to look for her. So, there was this girl who awfully looked a lot like her and since bestfriend and I haven't seen each other for a while, I hit the girls' head and was shocked that it was not the one I was expecting to be. She said something I didn't like and just said I was sorry, while awfully smiling, and walked away.
Until now, I can't get off the scene that had happened this morning. Now, I feel pathetic and still bothered for that. What if the woman had an internal bleeding for that? Sheesh! I didn't hit her hard. What if she told her friends, worse, her parents about that? Now that would be absolutely pathetic. Especially that she saw my face. My face! It has to change. Now, I'm feeling a little weirder again. Or what if, it could've been bestfriend and she had an internal bleeding. Then again, I didn't hit hard. Maybe it's just another lesson learned. That I should not hit another person like that. It's fun to do, but
I seem can't find the right person to talk about this matter so I just depended on this blog. Except minutes ago while I cried while listening to one of my favorite Christian song that I haven't heard for a while. I feel relieve, but not quite, still I thank God. :D
- If you are an atheist, or any related faith or something like that, I advise you to just keep your mouth shut and let me continue believing in God. But I do hope so that you find Him soon because He is as one million times awesome was what you believe now.
I Can't Stand To Count The Number of Days Left
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 1:42 PM
Last night, or maybe it wasn't last night because I've read about dreams and some of them take minutes to happen in real life but hours in dream life (if you get that, you win a cookie!), I dreamt about something in High School. A teacher was passing some "free" school supplies and yes, I was wearing a uniform that's why I still called it as High School. And I also saw my former classmates, and I was like "yikes" when I woke up.
Right now, it will be weeks from now before I enter college life. A Medical Technology major at St. Louis University. Somehow, I still ask myself, will I ever graduate from college? OR will I even survive college? I did survive High School. Thank Heavens for that. But college? Like, OMG. COLLEGE. Especially that I have chosen a very complicated major. But I'm not saying that it is really complicated and I should've not chosen it whatsoever, I'm not even sure if it would really be hard. I'm not a huge Science fan but it just amazes me. I'm neither not a huge Math fan but I would be happy if I get one hard problem correctly. It figures anyway.
So, my mother's like segregating things and clothes that I should bring along with me in Baguio right now. Even though we'll leave two weeks from now. I don't even want to pack yet. Maybe I'm lazy like that. No, I'm just NOT READY yet. Or maybe I'm just too nervous or too excited. It's either of the two.
But I know I can do it. I have this rare superpower of being positive as always. Or maybe not.
- I'll be changing the blog layout. Thank you very much for still reading this almost-dead blog.
Two posts in one day?!
Friday, May 07, 2010 @ 6:09 PM
Yes, I am back. I just want you to know that I got bored in editing all of my 200+ posts in this blog. LOL.
Anyway, I just want to share this. While "cleaning" up my blog, I had this post from two years ago, I took a test in this website Quizfarm.com and the quiz's title was "What Major is Right For You?" The major I got that time was French/Spanish/OtherLanguage. Like it's HAHAHAHA for me now. Second was English/Communications, and third was Biology/Chemistry/Geology.
Since I got serious again and all that, I decided to take the quiz again. My second re-take of the quiz, I got Religion/Theology as my major. Okay, now that's pretty far from what I am going to major in right now. There were some problems about God though, so, of course, I said "Strongly Agree". And I wouldn't expect that would be my major because of those "Strongly Agree" answers. Since the major isn't kind of "right" for me, I decided to re-take again for the third time. And guess what, I finally got Biology/Chemistry/Geology as my major! Here's the top 5 though.
I've been planning to "clean" this blog for a year now. Still, nothing has happened. So, it's just now that I'm going to actually do it. Especially starting with the "labels". I was a "childish" teen before and now I'm blaming myself for being so pathetic with having so many labels.
This maybe a hard thing to do, but hey, we should change things for the better sometimes.
A Bun in the Oven
Wednesday, May 05, 2010 @ 11:10 PM
We had this pre-activity every English class wherein a classmate of ours would give idioms or vocabularies in front of the class and everyone (except the one in front) would guess the meaning. I think I was in either Third Year or Second Year when one of my classmates gave the phrase "A Bun in the Oven", which means...Pregnant.
I remember the time when my seat mate/friend and I would suspect a classmate of ours if she was pregnant. But, our suspicions were wrong (thank God!) that she not and was never pregnant. Our school is against such act. Especially towards students. But of course, not with teachers and other employees. Our Religion class even includes an anti premarital sex topic and other related stuffs. Still, some students violate this rule. Former students were either dropped out or were not allowed to go up the stage and get their diplomas. Luckily (I think), none of my batch mates did not go up the stage because of this reason but because of poor grades or breaking a lot of school rules.
Just minutes ago, I was "stalking" an old friend of mine from my old school in FB. Yes, we were friends back when we were in Grade School. We even ride the same school service/tricycle together. I remember having her as a recess and lunch buddy. But, that was years ago. Now, I don't talk to her (and a lot of my Grade School classmates) and I don't have news about her. Except when I added her as a friend (and other GS classmates) in FB. That's why I had a chance to "stalk" her. Just look at her About Me section and her Photos. So, while reading the About Me section, I was surprised to see a "single mother, soon" there. Okay, so maybe she typed that down just for the lulz. But when I saw an ultrasound picture of a fetus (or was it just an egg cell? :P) and saw comments about it, I was rather shocked about it. She?! Pregnant at 16?! My age?! Like, WTH is happening in this world! But what shocked me about was the comments, one was begging to be a godmother and the baby be born in this country, and the others, just plain "yay's" for her. And since I was stalking her, I do not want to leave a comment there.
I am not angry or anything about that old friend but I'm just shocked about it. I remember her story to me that she was born when her mother was just 17 or 18. Was it because of lack of security? Or lack of actual knowledge? I had classmates during High School who have mothers who gave birth when they were just teenagers but no, my classmates are not like my old friend. Are we just lucky to have Pasig Catholic College as our Alma Mater that taught us the phrase "doing at the right time, at the right place for the right reason"? Or are we just lucky enough to have our Religion teachers teach us the value of teenage life? Or our advisers become our advisers despite of the problems we had with him/her? OR AM I just lucky enough to know that there's really a God who has a better plan for me?
For some odd reasons, I think the reasons stated about are true. But, it's not actually lucky now, it's for real. And now, I'll really be praying for that old friend of mine. For her to love her baby like her mother really loves her. And for her to love her baby like God loves her as His child.