I never imagined myself of visiting a jail once. Especially when I have someone related to or that I have met that is in the jail. But, today, I experienced it, but for a different reason - it was for our outreach.

Two years ago, I've shared my experience regarding our outreach within a barangay here in Pasig City. Last year, it was in a drug rehabilitation center for teenagers here in Pasig as well. But, this year, it was a different experience. Like what I've mentioned above, it was in a jail, a real-life jail.

At first, I was scared. No, terrified. Me? A 16-year old, entering a jail. It's just unbelievable. Especially when we reached the place. Its surrounding was really like a jail because of the circular barbed wires. But once I've entered and saw who the inmate who would be my partner (yes, we were paired with an actual prisoner), I was somehow felt relieved.

Ate Ligaya was the inmate I talked with. A nice and a jolly person. She's 41, married with three children (3 adults and 1 teen). Her husband has another woman now, though I'm not actually sure but she said he has his own kids with that woman or whatever. She's from Cebu City, stopped school when she was Grade 6 then moved to Bohol. I'm not sure why she really stopped school but she said it's because she married her husband. And since her family's in the province, they cannot visit her. It's because the fare's around PHP 2,500 or more. They communicate each other through cellphones and snail mails.

She said, the reason why she was imprisoned is because of drugs. I think it was shabu. Her family was poor, so she got involved with selling illegal drugs. She was put to jail last 2005, first in Bohol, then last year, she was transferred to the jail we visited today. What amazed me was that she was thankful that she was jailed. She said it was God telling her to change, reflect, and become a better person. She also told me that it was an opportunity for her to become closer with God even more. Every person in that prison is required to pray every morning or so. And, that just made me grateful. That even in that place, God's love still spread among them. And, that's just what they need, God's love and words.

When the talk and all of those things that we did ended, I thanked her and hugged her. It was the first time I hugged someone I just met an hour ago. But, I know she needed a hug. I mean, no one in her family visits her (because of the fare). And it's just one of the things she need - a simple hug from a person she just met. Even though she didn't give me a gift (she would've had actually, but we didn't pass by their dorm/a bigger prison cell), I was still happy that I met someone like her. Although I may not visit her in the future, I still hope that she'll remember me through the gifts I gave her and the prayers that I will offer for her.

Labels: exposure, prison

I took the UE College Entrance Test today. It was fairly easy and the examinees were only required to answer it for 1 1/2 hours. And since the results were immediately released after I took the exam (although we waited for 30 minutes for the results), I already learned that I passed. It wasn't shocking (although I was grinning at the woman who told that I passed), I mean, it was easy. In short, I already expected myself to pass the test already. :))

(Can't show a pic. I didn't bring the digicam with me. >P)

Labels: college, UE

First of all, it's not anymore midnight (12 AM). But, it's merely past 12 and 10 minutes before 1. For some reasons, I still want to call this post as a midnight post (got that from midnight snack though).

Wondering why I posted? I just want to post :)) Look at this blog, it's not even updated for like...more than a month. And, it looks like it's dying as well. Dying, sheesh, it's still Halloween. Anyway, I really don't have a topic to share. Except that I super miss the apartment we are renting (since we've been staying in our own house since Thursday), and although we went there around 5 hours ago, I still miss it. It's a weird feeling if when I'm there, I'll be missing this house (which has the computer, the Internet, the TV with cable, and THE FREEDOM). But, when I'm here, I'll be missing the apartment (in which I really don't have anything except the empty laptop and my books to read). And speaking of our houses (that's how hard to have more than one house XD), I also miss our rest house, which is in Laguna. Wonder if it was flooded too. Wonder on what the caretakers did to our house, if it was flooded. Did they raise the things too? Or did they just left them like we've left them when we were there. Too bad only Mom's going there tomorrow (one of the reason why I'm still awake). HOPEFULLY OR WHATEVER, she'll take me...or us with her. Or maybe not. I want to stay here to do THE FREEDOM. Lol.

Another reason of why I'm still awake is that, like everyone says, I CANNOT SLEEP. I've actually slept...for only ten or whatever minutes. Then I woke up. It's like God woke me up (since I really wanted to pray - but I fell asleep) to pray. And, yes, I did pray. And it was longer that I expected. It was just like talking to God, but only of course, a "spiritual" talk as what I like to call it. It has been weeks, or probably during Ondoy, that I haven't have that talk with him. And, since I didn't go to hear mass (blame me for violating commandment number 2 >.>), and have only read the Gospel through the Internet (which still did not satisfy me), I just decided to pray to God. And, it did feel great praying and talking to him. And since I did it, with all the tear-jerking, I can't sleep anymore. Bah. And the last reason on why I can't sleep is it's because of my sister. She's using the laptop, and you know that laptops have lights on them that makes the room not dark but still lighted up. Hopefully, I wish she's sleeping now. And with that, I want to sleep now. Blame me for this post, I seriously just want to update this lonely blog.

Labels: currents, uncategorized

It has been more than a week since Ondoy "slaughtered" the Metro. Of course, me and my family were one of the victims.

Until today, I cannot imagine that the flood will go inside of our house. I mean, why would I think of it? Like, it was already renovated, raised up high. But then, floods do not choose what size they can be. Luckily for us, it isn't like a flash flood (like the ones that raved Marikina), but it was because of the non-stop rain. Classes is still suspended until now in our school, since most of the students' houses are still flooded (including ours). And probably, it will still be flooded after a month or so.

Right now, Mom and I rent an apartment unit, 10 minutes away from school (if there is no traffic), which is just better. And nearer to what I need and all. (XD) And, right now, I am inside a computer shop. Which again, sucks big time since the monitor makes my eyes burn. The color just sucks...meaning...it gives me a hard time to concentrate. Especially that there are other people here. (And yes, we don't have any Internet yet in the apartment - but I'm hoping we'll have one soon.)

It's been a while since I typed something in this blog. And, it's quite a short version since I'm bored and, I don't like typing in computer shops. Meh.

Labels: back to blog, boredom, flood

I really don't know what I'm doing to myself right now. Escaping from Cisco and doing non-sense blogging.

Ah, well. This is just life. I'm done with answering the questions our teacher gave us. Though, I know, some of the items are still blank. XD

About the post before? Sheesh. I was bored. I had a problem with this classmate of mine and that's why I thought of typing about that. I'm thinking of deleting it, but, I think I won't anymore. Whatever.

I must go now. My teacher might see me. Lol.

Labels: boredom, in school

For the past months, particularly on this last year of my High School, I've been undergoing pressured changes in my life. I actually hate it, but, I just can't hate it, I have to accept them.

For me to share these, I need to re-introduce myself to everyone who reads this blog. I know maybe a few, or maybe no one at all reads this blog, but, whatever. I really don't care. As long my blog understands, I'm already fine with it.

You might never thought that I am a quiet, shy, untalkative [bunny :P], unsociable, alone, has-her-own-world, and anything that has the same meaning as these words. But, when you read this blog, you probably won't see these traits from me. I must admit, I don't want to show that I am shy to others when I type something over this blog, the hell, it's a blog, a blog means an open journal. So, yes, for a thousand time, this is the only place I can share my thoughts with. I never (or seldom) share my thoughts to others personally. I only keep them in my mind and think that I can overcome those negative thoughts. It may sound weird for you people who asks help from another person but this is me. I seldom accept other people's opinions (but I know how to respect them always) and only care for myself. It may sound unfair but that's how my life works. My life as a person for another person.

Just right now, I always wanted to be alone. Walking without someone beside me and walking just by myself. But, no, I'm not emo. I hate slashing my wrist, cry like a river on the corner of a room and wearing black all the time (what's that, I'm attending a funeral? XD). I wanted to be alone because that makes myself unwind itself. I can relax by thinking good and great things that have happened to me. I can talk to myself by saying that I can do something for myself. Well, this doesn't mean that I'm going crazy or anything but being only with myself makes me feel great. That even if I don't have any accompaniment, I can still carry myself to the destination I need to go. That I don't need a person to talk to, leaving myself to do the job. That I don't need a person to share secrets or thoughts, leaving myself to the job as well. And, that I don't need a person to be with me all the time, because I know I can handle situations by myself as long as I can do it.

These may sound funny for you but it's true. Though I must admit too that I still have my friends to keep me company, but sometimes, I just need myself to do things that I don't need to share with others. Thank God I have a brain, senses, feelings to cover myself. With my brain, I can think; with my senses, I can feel the things other people are saying to me - meaning, I can correct myself whether they say bad things about me; and with my feelings, I can show if I'm fine or not to others.

No matter how people say negative things about me, I know I can still carry myself. As long as I can still believe that I can still handle these situations, I can show how great or how "useful" I am to others.

Labels: changes, fourth year, life, rants

And since September is my birthday month, I present you people Onion! (I'm not actually sure of his/her name but I think he/she is Onion :P)

Hm. I'm not back for any blog updates, but I promise to post something tomorrow or the next day or the next or whenever I'll be available again.

Labels: back to blog, layout

I never imagined myself of visiting a jail once. Especially when I have someone related to or that I have met that is in the jail. But, today, I experienced it, but for a different reason - it was for our outreach.

Two years ago, I've shared my experience regarding our outreach within a barangay here in Pasig City. Last year, it was in a drug rehabilitation center for teenagers here in Pasig as well. But, this year, it was a different experience. Like what I've mentioned above, it was in a jail, a real-life jail.

At first, I was scared. No, terrified. Me? A 16-year old, entering a jail. It's just unbelievable. Especially when we reached the place. Its surrounding was really like a jail because of the circular barbed wires. But once I've entered and saw who the inmate who would be my partner (yes, we were paired with an actual prisoner), I was somehow felt relieved.

Ate Ligaya was the inmate I talked with. A nice and a jolly person. She's 41, married with three children (3 adults and 1 teen). Her husband has another woman now, though I'm not actually sure but she said he has his own kids with that woman or whatever. She's from Cebu City, stopped school when she was Grade 6 then moved to Bohol. I'm not sure why she really stopped school but she said it's because she married her husband. And since her family's in the province, they cannot visit her. It's because the fare's around PHP 2,500 or more. They communicate each other through cellphones and snail mails.

She said, the reason why she was imprisoned is because of drugs. I think it was shabu. Her family was poor, so she got involved with selling illegal drugs. She was put to jail last 2005, first in Bohol, then last year, she was transferred to the jail we visited today. What amazed me was that she was thankful that she was jailed. She said it was God telling her to change, reflect, and become a better person. She also told me that it was an opportunity for her to become closer with God even more. Every person in that prison is required to pray every morning or so. And, that just made me grateful. That even in that place, God's love still spread among them. And, that's just what they need, God's love and words.

When the talk and all of those things that we did ended, I thanked her and hugged her. It was the first time I hugged someone I just met an hour ago. But, I know she needed a hug. I mean, no one in her family visits her (because of the fare). And it's just one of the things she need - a simple hug from a person she just met. Even though she didn't give me a gift (she would've had actually, but we didn't pass by their dorm/a bigger prison cell), I was still happy that I met someone like her. Although I may not visit her in the future, I still hope that she'll remember me through the gifts I gave her and the prayers that I will offer for her.

Labels: exposure, prison

I took the UE College Entrance Test today. It was fairly easy and the examinees were only required to answer it for 1 1/2 hours. And since the results were immediately released after I took the exam (although we waited for 30 minutes for the results), I already learned that I passed. It wasn't shocking (although I was grinning at the woman who told that I passed), I mean, it was easy. In short, I already expected myself to pass the test already. :))

(Can't show a pic. I didn't bring the digicam with me. >P)

Labels: college, UE

First of all, it's not anymore midnight (12 AM). But, it's merely past 12 and 10 minutes before 1. For some reasons, I still want to call this post as a midnight post (got that from midnight snack though).

Wondering why I posted? I just want to post :)) Look at this blog, it's not even updated for like...more than a month. And, it looks like it's dying as well. Dying, sheesh, it's still Halloween. Anyway, I really don't have a topic to share. Except that I super miss the apartment we are renting (since we've been staying in our own house since Thursday), and although we went there around 5 hours ago, I still miss it. It's a weird feeling if when I'm there, I'll be missing this house (which has the computer, the Internet, the TV with cable, and THE FREEDOM). But, when I'm here, I'll be missing the apartment (in which I really don't have anything except the empty laptop and my books to read). And speaking of our houses (that's how hard to have more than one house XD), I also miss our rest house, which is in Laguna. Wonder if it was flooded too. Wonder on what the caretakers did to our house, if it was flooded. Did they raise the things too? Or did they just left them like we've left them when we were there. Too bad only Mom's going there tomorrow (one of the reason why I'm still awake). HOPEFULLY OR WHATEVER, she'll take me...or us with her. Or maybe not. I want to stay here to do THE FREEDOM. Lol.

Another reason of why I'm still awake is that, like everyone says, I CANNOT SLEEP. I've actually slept...for only ten or whatever minutes. Then I woke up. It's like God woke me up (since I really wanted to pray - but I fell asleep) to pray. And, yes, I did pray. And it was longer that I expected. It was just like talking to God, but only of course, a "spiritual" talk as what I like to call it. It has been weeks, or probably during Ondoy, that I haven't have that talk with him. And, since I didn't go to hear mass (blame me for violating commandment number 2 >.>), and have only read the Gospel through the Internet (which still did not satisfy me), I just decided to pray to God. And, it did feel great praying and talking to him. And since I did it, with all the tear-jerking, I can't sleep anymore. Bah. And the last reason on why I can't sleep is it's because of my sister. She's using the laptop, and you know that laptops have lights on them that makes the room not dark but still lighted up. Hopefully, I wish she's sleeping now. And with that, I want to sleep now. Blame me for this post, I seriously just want to update this lonely blog.

Labels: currents, uncategorized

It has been more than a week since Ondoy "slaughtered" the Metro. Of course, me and my family were one of the victims.

Until today, I cannot imagine that the flood will go inside of our house. I mean, why would I think of it? Like, it was already renovated, raised up high. But then, floods do not choose what size they can be. Luckily for us, it isn't like a flash flood (like the ones that raved Marikina), but it was because of the non-stop rain. Classes is still suspended until now in our school, since most of the students' houses are still flooded (including ours). And probably, it will still be flooded after a month or so.

Right now, Mom and I rent an apartment unit, 10 minutes away from school (if there is no traffic), which is just better. And nearer to what I need and all. (XD) And, right now, I am inside a computer shop. Which again, sucks big time since the monitor makes my eyes burn. The color just sucks...meaning...it gives me a hard time to concentrate. Especially that there are other people here. (And yes, we don't have any Internet yet in the apartment - but I'm hoping we'll have one soon.)

It's been a while since I typed something in this blog. And, it's quite a short version since I'm bored and, I don't like typing in computer shops. Meh.

Labels: back to blog, boredom, flood

I really don't know what I'm doing to myself right now. Escaping from Cisco and doing non-sense blogging.

Ah, well. This is just life. I'm done with answering the questions our teacher gave us. Though, I know, some of the items are still blank. XD

About the post before? Sheesh. I was bored. I had a problem with this classmate of mine and that's why I thought of typing about that. I'm thinking of deleting it, but, I think I won't anymore. Whatever.

I must go now. My teacher might see me. Lol.

Labels: boredom, in school

For the past months, particularly on this last year of my High School, I've been undergoing pressured changes in my life. I actually hate it, but, I just can't hate it, I have to accept them.

For me to share these, I need to re-introduce myself to everyone who reads this blog. I know maybe a few, or maybe no one at all reads this blog, but, whatever. I really don't care. As long my blog understands, I'm already fine with it.

You might never thought that I am a quiet, shy, untalkative [bunny :P], unsociable, alone, has-her-own-world, and anything that has the same meaning as these words. But, when you read this blog, you probably won't see these traits from me. I must admit, I don't want to show that I am shy to others when I type something over this blog, the hell, it's a blog, a blog means an open journal. So, yes, for a thousand time, this is the only place I can share my thoughts with. I never (or seldom) share my thoughts to others personally. I only keep them in my mind and think that I can overcome those negative thoughts. It may sound weird for you people who asks help from another person but this is me. I seldom accept other people's opinions (but I know how to respect them always) and only care for myself. It may sound unfair but that's how my life works. My life as a person for another person.

Just right now, I always wanted to be alone. Walking without someone beside me and walking just by myself. But, no, I'm not emo. I hate slashing my wrist, cry like a river on the corner of a room and wearing black all the time (what's that, I'm attending a funeral? XD). I wanted to be alone because that makes myself unwind itself. I can relax by thinking good and great things that have happened to me. I can talk to myself by saying that I can do something for myself. Well, this doesn't mean that I'm going crazy or anything but being only with myself makes me feel great. That even if I don't have any accompaniment, I can still carry myself to the destination I need to go. That I don't need a person to talk to, leaving myself to do the job. That I don't need a person to share secrets or thoughts, leaving myself to the job as well. And, that I don't need a person to be with me all the time, because I know I can handle situations by myself as long as I can do it.

These may sound funny for you but it's true. Though I must admit too that I still have my friends to keep me company, but sometimes, I just need myself to do things that I don't need to share with others. Thank God I have a brain, senses, feelings to cover myself. With my brain, I can think; with my senses, I can feel the things other people are saying to me - meaning, I can correct myself whether they say bad things about me; and with my feelings, I can show if I'm fine or not to others.

No matter how people say negative things about me, I know I can still carry myself. As long as I can still believe that I can still handle these situations, I can show how great or how "useful" I am to others.

Labels: changes, fourth year, life, rants

And since September is my birthday month, I present you people Onion! (I'm not actually sure of his/her name but I think he/she is Onion :P)

Hm. I'm not back for any blog updates, but I promise to post something tomorrow or the next day or the next or whenever I'll be available again.

Labels: back to blog, layout